A couple days ago I wrote kind of a long blog about how tough it is to live here, in reference to the people...It was a venting session, and I'm not tons keen on blubber blogging...so I nixed it. Instead of writing about how hard it is for lil' ol' mez, I'm going to go on about how awesome I am.
Point 1- I think I'm ridiculously funny. (key word is probably 'think')
Point 2-I don't care what others think of me, as long as I'm doing what I feel is right, and am treating people the way they deserve to be treated (and I think everyone deserves to be treated with kindness).
Over a course of 5 years I made so many AMAZING, WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, KIND and GENUINE friends rather quickly, because I love people (a lot). In the 7 or 8 months of living here I can barely count the # of people I would consider good friends on one hand...And people think I'm SHY here. I think my interactions with people have to do mostly with my situation, and I need to keep in mind this is not a representation of the entire city. This is just my luck. (ok, ok...I said I wasn't going to vent about how tough life is for me here)
Point 3-I love plants
Point 4- I love animals
Point 5- I love cooking, eating, experimenting and appreciating food.
Point 6- I'm a conservative hippie. I think "all natural" products are a lie, and make most of my own. I think all the world's problems could be solved with the power of love. I'm a bit of an eco nut, and even live in a tiny home (by pure blessing)....etc...
Point 7- I LOVE creativity in just about any form.
Point 8-I get a thrill from living within my means.
Point 9- I have many passions in life. I am a jack-of-all treads, master of none. And I like that :)
Point 10- I believe in myself. Despite my trials I'm in a place where I'm happy. This is a good place for me in life. Not where I always want to be, but it is good for right now.
Ok. This was a longer post than my venting un-published one..and there still is venting in it, but like I said, I don't really interact with many close friends here, so I've got to tell someone. Might as well be the whole world.
I am grateful every morning to live in a cute little home (at least it's cute to me). I'm grateful for a Heavenly Father who will ALWAYS love and care about me. I'm grateful for food, and water, and shelter, and my space heater, and finding a way to make my crummy European mattress comfy, and for Jeff being my bestest friend who cares about me too. I'm grateful for out of the blue letters and texts and emails and calls from my wonderful friends.
I promise to never go on again like this again...(fingers crossed behind my back)...But be encouraged to find things you like about yourself, because no one deserves not to. And when you interact with people, don't think of a single negative thing about them. Find the beauty in all, because they deserve it too.