Saturday, May 8, 2010

Cake Day

Today is my 23rd birthday.
 It’s kind of a weird feeling. I never expected to be where I am today…but I’ve never been where I thought I’d be. This year has been a struggle for me. I’ve felt as though I’ve lacked a purpose. As though I haven’t been doing enough, and yet have been doing all I can. While I was going to school, it wasn’t exactly where I wanted it to be, but I had a reason for being there, I knew it would come to an end, and I made the most of what I had. Now, for the past year I’ve been trying to fit all the pieces together, and they just still aren’t falling into place. I still have no clue what I’m doing with my life. I know where I want to go; I just have no idea how to get there.

I got so much comfort today while reading in the Book of Mormon. (1 Nephi 4) I need to have faith; be strong, and the Lord will provide a way. “And I was led by the Spirit, not knowing beforehand the things which I should do (4:6).” Is how I feel most the time in my life. “Never the less I went forth…(4:7)” is what I must do.

Life is just so great, and so hard. That is why we are here. This video is so wonderful in giving this message. I’ve read NieNie’s blog for a while now, and she is such a testament of having faith; being strong, and having the Lord provide a way:

I will be okay. I will be more than okay. My life is great, and I have a great work to do. Who knows, maybe I’m already working on it…:)


Maren said...

I watched this LAST NIGHT with Grant. I was seriously bawling my eyes out. it's so amazing. I miss you Mal, happy birthday darling. I love you very very very very very very much. I wish I was there to give you a big hug and a kiss (on the mouth). you are so wonderful.

Christyn Caryn said...

Happy Happy Happy Birthday Mal!!!! Oh I dearly love you and I completely know how you feel! I mean, I don't understand entirely but I feel like the whole time I was reading that post I was thinking "Yeah... uh huh... yeah... oh my I'm not the only one!" :) I love you and hope things are well in Ideeeehhooo!